A little bit tired, maybe i should rest. i don't know.
my friend told me that before, "look! how pressure you are in work now! may it's time for you to change for new environment!".
i begin to lose my patience in working for this couple of days. there have been several time that i nearby losing my control and throw out my temper on the user, but i still forcibly pressed down hard. the result are the user talking while i was swallowing. anything wrong if i asking the user complete their job faster before production start to run? if they not able to complete on time, then it will leave alot manual job for me. and why i should doing this all? this supposely is their job ok! why need IT to remind? and how they think IT dept is? take over their job during they going out for outstation? nonsense! wtf! how weak communication they are even for the same dept! wtf they doing actually? i not deny that i'm a person with not high EQ, thus i dont know when will be my temper "detonated". and when it reach, will it be the time i changing for new job? i dont know, again.
and there are another challenge waiting for me to guide newbie on doing job. lousy management i have causing my task become endless now? i may only blaming myself on this matter due to never taking seriously on it. so hard to complete my job now. mostly everytime user request for the new task, i seldom confirmly answer them with "sure" but only with "i try". sigh. how going with my life now? again, again and again, i dont know.
It’s another night ..
6 days ago
Mind Storms always give warning signs. These "storms" initially show up in that little voice of conscience that talks to us. You might recognize the voice of conscience as that positive voice that says, "Gee, you look good." And, "That was a terrific job." Or, in its negative tones, when it says, "That was really stupid. How could you be so dumb?" In a Mind Storm the voice is usually negative, critical, or irrational in its comments.
ReplyDeleteThis little voice of self-talk can talk us into some bad spots. The challenge of Mind Storms is to learn to watch them come and go but not to react by feeding them more energy through negative thinking and impulsive deeds. We need to observe the little voice while not necessarily responding too seriously to it.
http://www.lessons4living.com/mindstorms1.htm
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